My Coming Out Story

Let me get this thing straight, we don’t need to come out. We have the right to keep it to ourselves and not feel pressured by other people wanting to know who we are. Late ko na yan na-realize. Pero di ko pinagsisisihan na naging totoo ako sa pamilya, sa mga kamag-anak, at sa mga kaibigan ko kasi ang sarap nya sa pakiramdam.

Kailan ko nga ba naramdaman na mayroong hindi “typical” sakin? And by not typical, I meant like unusual and different from what we were told as we grow up, from what we saw on tv and movies. Nasa elementary ako noon nung nakaramdam ako ng paghanga sa kapwa ko lalaki. Crush kumbaga. Pero wala akong pinagsasabihan kasi ang pagtingin ko noon ay mali iyon at talagang di ko in-entertain yung thought. Nagtuloy yun hanggang high school. Kahit other part of me likes boys, nagka-girlfriends ako non. And I also liked that feeling, I also like girls. I experienced na may nag dump sakin na girl. I experienced being rejected nung nag ask ako kung pwede akong manligaw. I experienced puppy love with a girl. Nakakatuwa sa pakiramdam na naranasan ko iyong mga bagay na yon.

But at the back of my young, immature mind: I need to get to know myself even more. I need to explore.

With things like this, where is the best place to explore? Manila.

2011. I started studying in San Beda-Mendiola for College. It is the year when I opened up myself to meeting guys and realizing my identity. The first guy I dated was a nurse. I met him on Facebook. Ganon pala yung feeling na expressing your attraction to the same sex. Ang daming adjustments kasi nga we’re both guys. Di ko alam paano o anong gagawin. Ang alam ko lang, gusto ko sya kahit lalaki sya at masaya ako. Sa kanya ko na-experience yung first kiss sa guy.

Pero dahil nga less knowledgeable ako at ang bata ko nun (lame excuse, I know), umayaw ako at nag stop kami mag date. Di ko rin masabi kung anong gusto ko – relationship, fun, or experiment lang.

2011 or 2012. I had my first boyfriend. It didn’t work out well, I think 3 months lang kami.

2014. Nag level up ako sa next boyfriend ko. We started talking naman on Instagram. Naalala ko yung first date namin, we watched Bride for Rent of Kim Chiu and Xian Lim. We had a good run actually.

Hindi ko pa sya napapakilala nun kila Mama. Medyo naramdaman ko na parang teka alam na yata nila Mama na may boyfriend ako nung time na tahimik at bad mood ako. Sabi sakin ni Mama at Ate, “Bakit ka ganyan? Magkaaway ba sila Vincent at Eric?” Mga characters sa My Husband’s Lover noon. Nagulat ako nung tinanong nila sakin yan. Tawa lang yung reaksyon ko. Natuwa ako actually.

Then this one night came. I arrived home from a date. Me and Ate were living together in an apartment here in Manila. She asked me where I have been to and that Mama is looking for me and whom I with. I said that I was with a friend.

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Please Like Me.

Okay, so I just finished watching Please Like Me, an Australian gay-themed TV series, and I loved it! Karl started watching it so I joined him however I disliked it at first since I found the main character, Josh, egoistic and insensitive but things changed eventually (I don’t want to spoil) and I fell in love with it.

To give you a brief description about the series, it was produced by Australian Broadcasting Corporation (ABC) and ran from 2013-2016. Oh yes darlings, it ended already – and yeah it sucks! It wrapped up last 2016 and I just got to watch it this 2018. Though, I can say that it is still so relevant at this time. Additionally, Josh Thomas, who played as Josh, was also the creator, writer, and executive producer of the critically-acclaimed series. Continue reading “Please Like Me.”

Charice is now Jake Zyrus

Just this month, we heard about the news that Charice Pempengco is now Jake Zyrus. Dude, what an inspiration! You are standing up for yourself, your life, and your happiness – and nobody could stop you.



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PLL The Endgame – S07E12 These Boots Were Made for Stalking – Reaction Blog


Is it just me or are we all terrified about this board game A.D. preferred to call Liar’s Lament, and what it can do to the girls? So basically, this board game is a big part to how it will all end.

In this episode, there’s a part when Emily said that she’s done already, referring to Liar’s Lament and A.D. I’m wondering if how done are the girls when they say they are done. Continue reading “PLL The Endgame – S07E12 These Boots Were Made for Stalking – Reaction Blog”


I read the book back in college and I really liked the story despite the immaturity of the characters. Hence, that vulnerability, and irrationality made Hannah Baker decide to kill herself.

I posted the picture above dated September 27, 2014 on Instagram, and here it is after more than 2 years – an adaptation to web series! I was stoked when I found out that Netflix would be doing a series of Th1rteen R3asons Why. I don’t read a lot, that is why I’m amazed that one of the few books I got to read would be recreated into a series. Luckily, my sister have a subscription already on Netflix so that I don’t need to  purchase my own. Continue reading “MY COLLEGE NOSTALGIA – TH1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY (Web Series) – Reaction Blog”

Where is Matt Mendoza?

As I scan the tv channels after I woke up early this morning, Dyesebel was on play at PBO. The 1996 version with Charlene Gonzales and Matt Mendoza. I was only 2 years old during that time, yet I watched it as I grew up.

Back then, I found Matt Mendoza good-looking but not until I’ve seen him again today that Handsome Matt changed into Hot Matt. The way I look at him now is different, perhaps because I can already appreciate his buff body, big arms, and hot legs. Grabe pala yung igsi ng mga shorts na suot nya, yung hotness nya pag naka-trunks lang sya. Mas naappreciate ko talaga sya ngayon hahaha.



Pasensya, yan lang yung nakuha kong pics from before. Parang limited lang yung photos before ni Matt Mendoza online. Hindi ko rin ma-screengrab yung movie kasi wala akong clear copy.

Nonetheless, where is Matt Mendoza now? Continue reading “Where is Matt Mendoza?”

5 LGBT TV and Web Series that You Should Watch

It is just very delightful to watch same sex love as the center of a series whether on television or online in these modern days. By that, same sex love is watched on many households thus proper understanding could blossom from there, resulting to widespread acceptance. Thought of homosexual relationship as total lust and sexual might be clear out now into what is truly larger – LOVE.

Alike to heterosexual relationships, there are uncertainties, awkwardness, and fears. Uncertain feelings if we really like the person or it’s just infatuation. Awkward moments during the getting-to-know and dating stages. And fear of losing the person due to mistakes, misunderstanding, differences, and destiny or God’s plan. However, most importantly, there are butterflies in the stomach, bravery, betterment, and inspiration.


My Husband’s Lover

This is the first gay-themed series I’ve ever watched and it happened to be a Filipino original. I am just so proud with GMA 7 after pulling off this first ever gay-themed teleserye in Philippine TV history. I followed this series from beginning up to the end during my college days when I haven’t even came out to my family yet. The story revolves around Vincent who is married to Lally and has two kids however Vincent is a closeted bisexual. Conflict and confusion arise when he and Eric, his high school lover, met again. Continue reading “5 LGBT TV and Web Series that You Should Watch”